Do you ever have them moments when you just stop. Look around. And think my god how did I end up like this? A long, long time ago I gave a shit i cared about what was going to happen. But now I think I have come to the conclusion of take each day as it comes. It would be sooo much easier if life was how you wanted it to be, if you could make your own descions and not have to think about the ripple of things that come with it.
He clearly doesn't want to talk to me or else he would text me? Isnt that what they say, if they wanted to talk to you they would? Hmmm that really doesnt help me feel any better in this situation, how does this all happen? A million things running through my head at this moment in time, is he having doubts? Can he take having a grown up realtionship? Can he even handle the idea of being with someone who actually cares about him, wants to be with him?
I dont know. I dont think i ever will know.
Why does this always happen?